The Wind may hurl, the Rain may fall

But I will stand, as hard as I shall...

 

Friends will die, crossing the wall

But I will stand, against odds and all...

 

Lovers will fade, echoes in a hall

But I will stand, alone but tall...

 

Oh I can fall down, almost totally flat

But I get back up, always, like a cat...

 

Matrimonial fights may get pretty ugly

But at the end, only the truth we will see... 

 

The Pain may come and go, like memories

But the Pagan remains, temporary worries...

 

Life may slap, as tough as it can, oh yeah

But I will stand, proud and tall I tell ya...

 

Always. 

 

 

What a year!

Has anyone seen "Click" with Adam Sandler? Darn, I'd use his remote to fastforward to 2008 right now!!!! 

Got news tonight that my ex's lawyers are extending procedures and want more than what I offer. Great! Got into a frustrated conversion with my lawyer, wtf...I hold nothing back, ain't lying, have proven on multiple accounts that my ex is lying her a$$ off, I play by the book. i am about being fed up being Mr. Nice Guy...She's boosted her figures of expenses to ridiculous proportions, she even told her lawyer that I've spoken with her this week and that I agree paying for what she asks!!!! The f*&^#$g nerve!!!!!!! I haven't seen or spoken to her since early september when she changed all the locks to my own g*&$%^m home!

Aside from this catholic/pagan wannabe ex-wife from hell, I am dealing pretty bad with the loss of my old friend...I thought it would get easier as the days passed, this week, but it doesn't...I had to prepare newspaper orbituaries, his remaining family don't know what to write...egads...so I did...

Yule is coming, the full moon is right around the corner and I am so pissed. I am fed up of being pissed. I am sick of being the giver, giver, giver, who the f*&k gives me huh? Bloodsuckers!

Thank gods I have my sister to talk to and vent, if it wasn't for that, for what I've been going through since july, and there are many events I don't even mention here, I'd be in serious need of a shrink! 

So I ask, is it me or what?

 

 

In Memoriam

As we pass through life day by day,

Some people come, some people go and some are lent to us,

In a certain way…

Becoming friends, for better, for worse, for fun,

And as life happens, with its ups and downs,

The friendship remains, much like the moon and sun…

We share a happy moment, or a sad event,

And slowly, the friendship becomes unique,

A special relationship that time cannot bend…

Sometimes we teach, sometimes we’re taught,

Sometimes we’re happy or so very very angry,

But this is friendship, is it not?...

And decades go by, without us realizing,

That some people are temporary lent to us,

Like a blooming flower in the spring…

Today, as we sit here thinking, remembering,

As you are given back to the earth,

Of you, we can only say one thing…

You were a father, a husband, an uncle, a brother,

And a friend to so many in the community,

We will always remember…

Last Friday, you’ve set sail on a new adventure,

Leaving behind all those who loved you,

But you’re leading the way again, aren’t you?...

Thank you Old Friend for the time you’ve given us,

We’ll always cherish and honor those last words of wisdom,

“Life goes too fast to be unhappy…”…

Came across this one and found it interesting to share.

Hope you enjoy...

 

 

 

 

As I walk into his room, he smiles, extends his arms for a huge hug...

"So good to see you, Marc..."

His voice is weak, and very distorted, he's got growing polyps in his throat which makes it very tough to speak, and extremely tough to swallow...

"It's good to see you too, how you been doing?"

"I'm not too good at this you know..."

"You have any pain?"

"No, I'm not suffering, it's just I feel like I'm slowly fading away..."

He can't walk anymore, the man I knew that was 185 pounds is down to a 112...

"You have a happy face Marc, I guess things are going well with your sister..."

"Yeah, they are. Was tough to adjust at the beginning though..."

"I heard you're divorcing, it's good, you will get your life back..."

"wow...news go fast!"

He smiles, I know it comes from Sylvie (his wife)...

"Yeah, I feel less stressed than I was. The future looks bright..."

"You know Marc, life goes too fast to be unhappy. Look at me, ran after money and business all my life, putting aside what's really important...look at me now..."

My eyes are filling up, but I flush these tears back in, don't want to cry in front of him...This is the man I remember from years ago, the one I admired, the one I loved...

"What do you do throughout the day?"

"Nothing really. Watch tv..."

"Yeah, I see you're still addicted to CNN!"

Both laugh...he's always been a huge CNN fan...

"Sylvie helping out a lot?"

"Oh yeah! She's been fantastic with me. More than I expected! Now I'm trying to teach her to be generous with the employess..."

"Good luck!"

"I know"

We both laugh... 

"It's good, how is Christine?" (his 13 year old daughter)

"She's ok. She's a big girl now, she'll be ok..."

We then start to talk just for talk...up to the point where it's time for me to go...

"Can I ask something of you before you leave Marc?"

"Of course..."

"Make a promise..."

"Say?"

"Promise me to try to be happy, every day, as much as you can, life goes too fast to be unhappy..."

"I will give it my best shot, I promise..."

He smiles, extends his arms, gives me the biggest hug I've ever had from him, kisses me on the cheek...again my eyes are filling up, I swallow back...

"Good bye Marc..."

"Good bye Old Friend..."

I don't know if I'll see him again before he passes to Summerland, but once again, on his death bed, he shares his final wish...

"Life goes too fast to be unhappy..."