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TONIGHT @ 8:00 PM.

:)

Marc.

"The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen." Elizabeth Kubler Ross

So much has happened dear friends!

As you all know, I lost my boss and good friend back in November. I saw him dead in his bed, the night he passed away, his wife (yeah, that woman married him TWO days before he died, I found out you don't only see these things in movies!!!), his beloved sister and some friends were there. Honestly, these guy was picked up for the morgue, (picked up being a strange word since they stripped him, put him in a body bag and carried him out to the truck where another body bag was already), his wife, his sister, his own daughter, hardly staying around him all this time, hardly crying either...Then came the funeral. By his religion, they didn't perform any authopsy, nor did they close his eyes and mouth...In a cheap wooden casket (more of a box actually), they invited guests to come and pay respect for five minutes...The people that hadn't seen him in months weren't shocked...they were traumatized...I know of two friends that didn't sleep for days, having nightmares...what they saw was unbelievable...His "wife", his sister, his daughter, not a tear. They closed the box shut and we had to follow him to his grave, they lower him in his grave, a bulldozer shows up to put the earth back in...while people are still there! His wife and daughter, not a tear, not a word...his sister, well she had already gone to the restaurant where all his closest friends would eat and talk of the good old times with Mahmoud...It gets better. We leave for the restaurant (I have to mention at this point that I was under such a schock I wasn't really hungry...this poor guy that loved everyone so much had been put to rest (no, from the moment he died actually) like a dog found on the side of the street...). The restaurant. Everyone there aren't really hungry, most of them are disgusted at what they saw...yet we're hearing laughter...yep. His "wife" and her family are having a blast! His sister and her hubby join in...it's party time!!! I take a coffee and leave, I'm going to be sick...

And back to work I go. Comes december 26th, boxing day...Managing the place, I had been in numerous arguments over decisions taken by his wife, the new owner...December 26th, 5 o'oclock, she walks in, we're dead beat, boxing day has to be the worst and busiest day of the year in retail business...she asks me if I'd like to go for a coffee at 6. Great, we'll finally take decisions about the buying for january...I'd been asking her for weeks to look it over! So we go to the nearest cafe. She compliments me for a job well done this year. Good. Then she tells me that she is taking over the store and she won't be needing a manager anymore. WHAT?????? Say that again? Yep. I ask her when do I finish. She says "You finished today, I'll be needing your store keys please...". Not once, has her eyes looked into mine. So I go home.

No package, just a lousy four percent check and my pay. Good Luck.

So I go home. Home since I left my sister's place on the 21th of december. She has a little problem with wine. She drinks anywhere between a half bottle to a full bottle a night...every night. I tried to get her to realise this, very sofly, very gently, yet a big mistake. She wanted me out, she wanted to have her own privacy back. I was bringing her "bad vibes" as she mentioned the last night I was there. We are still very close and talk often but I'll never raise the wine question again. She'll have to eventually deal with this by herself.

So I live in a very small place but I have all I need for the time being.

January comes along and I decide to finally push that business that I had been working on for so long. And I launched it. It's three months now and it's going well, not great but hey...it takes a while...the foundations are solid and I live from it, so, it's all good. I am still single, but I realise now that I wasn't and still ain't ready for a relationship. Too much turmoil still. My separation with my ex is finally done and over with - officially - and am now into the divorce procedures. The kids are doing great.

So, 2008 is a good year so far. No way in hell can it be as bad as 2007. Although there are memories from that year that will forever stay deep deep in my heart, but overall, I'm glad it's over.

I stopped writing poetry. Haven't written poetry in the longest time. I was also being published in a pagan mag. I stopped that also. I needed the time to put my life back together and it's the reason why I stayed off the net also. I was off centered, off course and seriously off balanced.

But I DID stand. And am STILL standing. Step by step. You know what I wrote under quote "When Life gives you a thousand reasons to cry, show Life you have a thousand reasons to smile"?

I did and dare you to try. Right now...1...2...3...and so on till you hit 1000. Reasons you should be smiling! Sounds esay huh? I dare you, and if you do, you will find out that life is full of surprises and little gifts.

I did stop to write poetry but it doesn't mean I stopped writing alltogether. Am actually working on a book. But that's for another blog.

Thank you, I've had a warm welcome back from many of you, and (see that would be one of a thousand reasons to smile :) ),,,It touched me but then again, isn't this community one of the best there is on this world wide web? Yes, it is.

Be good, as always.

Marc.

More than a half hour writing a blog, what I've done, where I've been, how I'm doing...

And Covenspace ate it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Will write it back when I get a chance :)

Nice to see many familiar faces still hanging around!

Marc.

Court.

Got in front of the judge this morning for the divorce procedures, which start with separation procedures, which couldn't be settled off court, my ex being just a little too demanding...

Well, I got my a$$ kicked, my face and most of my teeth bashed in...

Lost everything. Cannot do shit about it. And losing seventy - yep 70 - percent of my salary. Somehow she even got the kids to give false testimony that they don't give her any money whatsoever...I am not shocked, it's BEYOND that...

I am so disgusted.  It's almost like my own lawyer is getting a cut or something!!!

Today, a big part of me died. Trust, love, joy. Down the drain.

I am not writing this for sympathy, I don't even know why I write it, just to get it out of my system perhaps...

I will survive but today I lost faith. Faith in others, faith in myself, faith in a superior being. This is so wrong, just so so wrong. But who ever said life was fair, right?

Trust hurts, love...well, I'm not even going there, joy, what for?

Ain't worth it.